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I've not been on the forum much lately. Been trying to get some very confusing happenings in my think tank figured out. My understanding so far is I've been given a great gift. I believe we are are all given the same gift but are left on our own to find and use it. That is all I really want to know because it's the best thing that's happened to me in 30+ and I'm not willing to risk losing it to over-thinking.
Most of you know I have some health issues that have become quite oppressive and painful these last few years. Most are irreversible but the most painful can be helped with a hip replacement. All my docs have been dragging their feet and trying their best to discourage me from having the surgery. Under the circumstances and to what I'm certain is the correct thinking for the times they believe in what they say. They give me a 2 in 10 chance of surviving the procedure. I'll admit a little spooky for about 5 min. Then as it began to clear it started to get exciting. Think about it. We are all going some time. Lets face it life is fatal. My gift is I was given 80% odds of being able to tell you the day and better yet probably within' a few hours.
Just enough doubt to give it a good thrill but a definite fact.
It has really started a cleaning process, getting rid of useless garbage in my head. Lots of work to do yet but it's begun. It's the happiest I've been in years. Will admit today was tougher than the last two weeks. I'm sure I know why.
I only tell friends things like this and I didn't let you know to have you worry. I'd rather see a pool and the winner save a puppy or kitties.
Most of you know I have some health issues that have become quite oppressive and painful these last few years. Most are irreversible but the most painful can be helped with a hip replacement. All my docs have been dragging their feet and trying their best to discourage me from having the surgery. Under the circumstances and to what I'm certain is the correct thinking for the times they believe in what they say. They give me a 2 in 10 chance of surviving the procedure. I'll admit a little spooky for about 5 min. Then as it began to clear it started to get exciting. Think about it. We are all going some time. Lets face it life is fatal. My gift is I was given 80% odds of being able to tell you the day and better yet probably within' a few hours.
Just enough doubt to give it a good thrill but a definite fact.
It has really started a cleaning process, getting rid of useless garbage in my head. Lots of work to do yet but it's begun. It's the happiest I've been in years. Will admit today was tougher than the last two weeks. I'm sure I know why.
I only tell friends things like this and I didn't let you know to have you worry. I'd rather see a pool and the winner save a puppy or kitties.
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